I was raised Catholic, went to church, even Catholic school until I was in 7th grade. I learned all about my religion. Until I realized the darker side of the institution-ness of the religion. I was a believer.
I always thought there was something more. Not really a God though. Mother Nature and Evolution are things, I think, that run the show. I believe in karma and fate. But today something changed in my brain. I forgot everything I learned while in school and from going to church about God and his teachings.
My boss is a firm believer in God. He doesn't practice but he has helped me realize that I don't have to agree with the catholic faith. I can have my own faith in God and believe that he created me , rose from the dead.. etc. I used to have all these thoughts and questions and reasons for not believing. Proof of some kind. Reasons... I had tons. Now I cannot think of one, besides the fact that my mind isn't grasping he put us here to live with plants and animals. I found this site, that oddly enough I enjoyed reading. http://www.everystudent.com/features/isthere.html
"P" my boss, has asked me to watch a movie over this break that is about Jesus and what he was all about. I have learned all of this in school but my mind has blocked it from being believable.
Seriously, I have forgotten all the reasons not to believe. I am almost at the point where it's like "Why not just believe? What's it going to hurt?" Now that I know it's not a requirement of God to be involved in the church its easier to accept somethings. I am just coming to this realization even more as I am writing this long winded, 1st blog entry. I figure, start the new year with a new blog and a more open-mind to God.
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